one thing i get when my uncle married one more.
poligami. memang susah.
selama ni, i used to believe that the most important thing you must consider is money. whether you can support both your wives and children.
second, kemampuan dari segi batin.
selama ni i think, batin, almost every man, mampu. obviously, kalau tak kenapa nak kahwin lain ye tak?
but now i baru terfikir, beside that, men should think whether they can control their wives, with their sins. see that?
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Sunday, 4 August 2013
Saturday, 29 December 2012
bila lelaki puberty lambat
Assalamualaikum,
actually dari semalam, i nak tulis something about people. yang stereotype. yeahhhh.
and i memang dah tak boleh tangguh. sebab. nanti i lupa.
hmm...perlu ke merepek semua tu?
okay. straight to the point.
i don't like people, especially boys, yang mostly sebaya dengan i. sebab kebanyakan tak matang, and i know, lelaki memang lambat matang, maksud i tak suka is bukan suka boys and girls tu, but i don't like their mentality.
okay, i should explain more.
so here's the story. there's a boy in my class, this boy actually... tak berapa disukai la oleh classmates i yang lain..ada banyak sebab. and dalam kalangan girls pon, i dengar ada yang macam pandang as a freak. heh. takdelah freak sangat kan..okay, don't think that he's a nerdy because he's not, he actually very social. memang relax je. for me, he's not a problem, macam biasa je lah kan,
alah, i malas nak hurai panjang, but one of the factor, they said that dia bajet pandai.
the reason is that he selalu ask questions in the middle of the class. raise a hand and..ask.
and seriously, why did the boys kutuk dia macam tu?
i don't find any fault for raising up your hands and asking so many questions in the class?
so what? sebaliknya i rasa malu dengan diri sendiri bila tak angkat tangan tanya soalan dalam class..bila tak ada keyakinan diri macam ni, malu laaa...
huh. tu je, i just feel that making that as a topic untuk kutuk dia DARI BELAKANG is really not fair guys.. sebab itulah i tak berapa suka a group of guys yang main kawan like that, and man, lu olls, kalau suruh jadi SR lari kan?
actually dari semalam, i nak tulis something about people. yang stereotype. yeahhhh.
and i memang dah tak boleh tangguh. sebab. nanti i lupa.
hmm...perlu ke merepek semua tu?
okay. straight to the point.
i don't like people, especially boys, yang mostly sebaya dengan i. sebab kebanyakan tak matang, and i know, lelaki memang lambat matang, maksud i tak suka is bukan suka boys and girls tu, but i don't like their mentality.
okay, i should explain more.
so here's the story. there's a boy in my class, this boy actually... tak berapa disukai la oleh classmates i yang lain..ada banyak sebab. and dalam kalangan girls pon, i dengar ada yang macam pandang as a freak. heh. takdelah freak sangat kan..okay, don't think that he's a nerdy because he's not, he actually very social. memang relax je. for me, he's not a problem, macam biasa je lah kan,
alah, i malas nak hurai panjang, but one of the factor, they said that dia bajet pandai.
the reason is that he selalu ask questions in the middle of the class. raise a hand and..ask.
and seriously, why did the boys kutuk dia macam tu?
i don't find any fault for raising up your hands and asking so many questions in the class?
so what? sebaliknya i rasa malu dengan diri sendiri bila tak angkat tangan tanya soalan dalam class..bila tak ada keyakinan diri macam ni, malu laaa...
huh. tu je, i just feel that making that as a topic untuk kutuk dia DARI BELAKANG is really not fair guys.. sebab itulah i tak berapa suka a group of guys yang main kawan like that, and man, lu olls, kalau suruh jadi SR lari kan?
no more capital P -2-
Assalamualaikum,
guys, remember I pernah post something about.. lelaki lembut. no more capital P..
yeah.that guy. I never mention his name. but he's studying at the same place as i did before. but i dah stop. kan.
and last time, i've tried once to approach him and try to know his problems.. but got dumped. sebabnye, die rase i menyibuk. kot. pasal problem die. whatever la kan.
but u know. the guys kat sini, egypt nih, budak luar pon are still kecoh-kecohing pasal dia. u know why?
-actually die dah jadi semakin popular sekarang-
u know why?
because he changed into a girl. more than he did last time. when i got dumped.
haha.dumped.
yup. actually i dah agak when he blocked me, that he wasn't really want to change into a better person. and now, dah terbukti.
huh. i feel really disappointed really, feel like kena tipu. and it's not just me, but almost all of my friends yang percaya gila gila waktu tu yang dia nak change.
note that, waktu tu many of the guys ejek die and all that, and we like, hey...kesian dia, dia nak berubah dah, leklaa beb. "kesian" die kot......
and now.. memang la i tak menyesal when i'm not one of them yang ejek dia, but i agak menyesal jugak la kan, because he lied to us mannn.. and now, he got injections, i tak tahu mana actually, but, seriously, when did those breasts appear ?
huh. you are just a little 18. kenapa buat diri sendiri macam tu?
p/s: morning mood tak baik, praying for a whole good day, insyaAllah.
guys, remember I pernah post something about.. lelaki lembut. no more capital P..
yeah.that guy. I never mention his name. but he's studying at the same place as i did before. but i dah stop. kan.
and last time, i've tried once to approach him and try to know his problems.. but got dumped. sebabnye, die rase i menyibuk. kot. pasal problem die. whatever la kan.
but u know. the guys kat sini, egypt nih, budak luar pon are still kecoh-kecohing pasal dia. u know why?
-actually die dah jadi semakin popular sekarang-
u know why?
because he changed into a girl. more than he did last time. when i got dumped.
haha.dumped.
yup. actually i dah agak when he blocked me, that he wasn't really want to change into a better person. and now, dah terbukti.
huh. i feel really disappointed really, feel like kena tipu. and it's not just me, but almost all of my friends yang percaya gila gila waktu tu yang dia nak change.
note that, waktu tu many of the guys ejek die and all that, and we like, hey...kesian dia, dia nak berubah dah, leklaa beb. "kesian" die kot......
and now.. memang la i tak menyesal when i'm not one of them yang ejek dia, but i agak menyesal jugak la kan, because he lied to us mannn.. and now, he got injections, i tak tahu mana actually, but, seriously, when did those breasts appear ?
huh. you are just a little 18. kenapa buat diri sendiri macam tu?
p/s: morning mood tak baik, praying for a whole good day, insyaAllah.
Monday, 17 December 2012
like a star, just to see, never to catch.
Assalamualaikum, and hye there..
I don't know why, but sometimes...I think I'm gonna share something somewhat personal in here..heh, some people said that they won't ever let the world know their feeling, but guys, do you even know who I am? haha.. okay. tak lawak.
so, here I am, on the way, to express my..err... feeling, although, I don't really like reading people punya luahan-hati-yang-kalau-kau-baca-mulut-kau-akan-ternganga-sebab-nak-muntah . okay, panjang gila.
but, forgive me guys because... at least, I don't think, my way of feeling expression will make people nauseated..haha.
so.. I don't expect myself to come up to this extend...huh.
I know that I'm not supposed to think about him.. and seriously, why not another guy?
because, he's too good to be true.
and, he must be laughing if he know about this. that i'm liking him..like...seriously.
sometimes it makes me think that, kalau i'm that serious, why not compete? yeah..why don't you make yourself better than him..correct yourself..
why not seriously, as serious as you like him, change yourself to be a better woman? to be a girl that you think suits him, maybe?
I don't want to make any expectations- that when I do that, or that, he will be true , that he will come out of your dream, walking towards your "reality"
because, i dah cakap - he's too good to be true.
and changing....
i tak rasa it's worth it, it's for Him, not for him..
it's for my only Lord, that loves me, that cares for me every seconds of my life.....
and i pray - Ya Allah, please guide me, show me your light. jika tidak, saya termasuk orang orang yang rugi.
I wish I can change myself.. for Him - and to purify my niat. insyaAllah.
p/s: i still remember the moment i promised myself to let go of these childish thingy.to focus on my studies, yet, it comes again. lemahnya saya.
I don't know why, but sometimes...I think I'm gonna share something somewhat personal in here..heh, some people said that they won't ever let the world know their feeling, but guys, do you even know who I am? haha.. okay. tak lawak.
so, here I am, on the way, to express my..err... feeling, although, I don't really like reading people punya luahan-hati-yang-kalau-kau-baca-mulut-kau-akan-ternganga-sebab-nak-muntah . okay, panjang gila.
but, forgive me guys because... at least, I don't think, my way of feeling expression will make people nauseated..haha.
so.. I don't expect myself to come up to this extend...huh.
I know that I'm not supposed to think about him.. and seriously, why not another guy?
because, he's too good to be true.
and, he must be laughing if he know about this. that i'm liking him..like...seriously.
sometimes it makes me think that, kalau i'm that serious, why not compete? yeah..why don't you make yourself better than him..correct yourself..
why not seriously, as serious as you like him, change yourself to be a better woman? to be a girl that you think suits him, maybe?
I don't want to make any expectations- that when I do that, or that, he will be true , that he will come out of your dream, walking towards your "reality"
because, i dah cakap - he's too good to be true.
and changing....
i tak rasa it's worth it, it's for Him, not for him..
it's for my only Lord, that loves me, that cares for me every seconds of my life.....
and i pray - Ya Allah, please guide me, show me your light. jika tidak, saya termasuk orang orang yang rugi.
I wish I can change myself.. for Him - and to purify my niat. insyaAllah.
p/s: i still remember the moment i promised myself to let go of these childish thingy.to focus on my studies, yet, it comes again. lemahnya saya.
Saturday, 8 December 2012
one litre of tears
assalamualaikum, to the muslim readers,
hi guys :)
hehe,
semalam semalam lagi, kelmarin la maknanye, i just finished watching a japanese drama, hmm.... i know, i know, memang i ni lambat sikit, bila i cerita je kat sape sape, mesti diorang cakap 'ooo, da tengok dah cerita tu'
and i pon.. ' ????, seriously???? haaa, nape aku je yang baru tahu cerita ni?! '
tapi, i still nak cerita kat sini ape yang i rasa pasal cerita tu, firstly, biar i cerita macam mana i boleh tahu pasal cerita ni since i'm not into japanese movies sangat, tak berapa la, bukan tak berapa suka, tapi tak berapa tahu, actually japanese dramas are lot better than korean's sebenarnya, cerita korea mostly dekat dekat je jalan cerita dia, boring~
so, i baru je baca blog dr. Hannan, die la yang cerita pasal drama One Litre of Tears ni, haaa, kan, i dah kate mesti u all dah tawu :'(
comment : gila sedih, lagi sedih dari kabhi khushi, lagi sedih dari a moment to remember, lagi sedih dari novel andai itu takdirnya. sebabnya, sedih dia every episodes, non-stop.
and hmm.... agak la, otak i dah jadi kecut, sebab terlalu sedih, sedih sehh, lepas tengok cerita ni 'haaa, aku dah tak nak tengok memane ceghita sedih dah!'
satu sebab cerita dia based on true story pasal budak kena disease ape ntah - cerebellum die shrink kot, sebab nerve cell dia mati..
huh, tapi cerita dia takda la sejibik dengan yang real punye sebabnye die ade extra hero character, i rasa dalam hidup sebenar that girl takde pon pasal love story dengan lelaki ni, and i kinda like that guy (ehem, bukan kinda like dah.... memang suka sangat) sebab he's not very handsome, jambu or what so ever tu macam korean pondans...haha. sebab ape tak handsome?
sebab first time i tengok die, comment: hmmmm, hero die biase biase jehhhh.
but, emotions yang die bawak, mantepp gila, and he's one of the guys yang boleh cry, boleh nangis teresak esak MANLY. serious, sedih gila kan bila tengok lelaki nangis? bila lelaki yang nampak kuat nangis? sedih, bukan macam hyun bin nangis dalam cerita secret garden tu, even i like secret garden, tapi sincerely, hyun bin nangis LAWAK. tak sedih langsung. huh.
sooo...lelaki ni actually yang tambah perisa drama ni, yang buat cerita ni double triple sad. :'(
:'(
maybe peminat peminat nikishido ryo dah tawu cerita ni, and dah tahu sume pasal mamat jepun nih, tapi i kan, baru tahu, i don't want to see his other movie, or character, sebab i just suka character die dalam cerita ni. i don't want to see another him.haha. nanti perception i berubah. tanakkk.
so, biar i letak mv drama ni. heeee. sedih.
ni ost dalam cerita ni, bila ade lelaki ni - asou kun.
p/s: lelaki dalam drama. mana wujud.kan. heee. sedih!
hi guys :)
hehe,
semalam semalam lagi, kelmarin la maknanye, i just finished watching a japanese drama, hmm.... i know, i know, memang i ni lambat sikit, bila i cerita je kat sape sape, mesti diorang cakap 'ooo, da tengok dah cerita tu'
and i pon.. ' ????, seriously???? haaa, nape aku je yang baru tahu cerita ni?! '
tapi, i still nak cerita kat sini ape yang i rasa pasal cerita tu, firstly, biar i cerita macam mana i boleh tahu pasal cerita ni since i'm not into japanese movies sangat, tak berapa la, bukan tak berapa suka, tapi tak berapa tahu, actually japanese dramas are lot better than korean's sebenarnya, cerita korea mostly dekat dekat je jalan cerita dia, boring~
so, i baru je baca blog dr. Hannan, die la yang cerita pasal drama One Litre of Tears ni, haaa, kan, i dah kate mesti u all dah tawu :'(
comment : gila sedih, lagi sedih dari kabhi khushi, lagi sedih dari a moment to remember, lagi sedih dari novel andai itu takdirnya. sebabnya, sedih dia every episodes, non-stop.
and hmm.... agak la, otak i dah jadi kecut, sebab terlalu sedih, sedih sehh, lepas tengok cerita ni 'haaa, aku dah tak nak tengok memane ceghita sedih dah!'
satu sebab cerita dia based on true story pasal budak kena disease ape ntah - cerebellum die shrink kot, sebab nerve cell dia mati..
huh, tapi cerita dia takda la sejibik dengan yang real punye sebabnye die ade extra hero character, i rasa dalam hidup sebenar that girl takde pon pasal love story dengan lelaki ni, and i kinda like that guy (ehem, bukan kinda like dah.... memang suka sangat) sebab he's not very handsome, jambu or what so ever tu macam korean pondans...haha. sebab ape tak handsome?
sebab first time i tengok die, comment: hmmmm, hero die biase biase jehhhh.
but, emotions yang die bawak, mantepp gila, and he's one of the guys yang boleh cry, boleh nangis teresak esak MANLY. serious, sedih gila kan bila tengok lelaki nangis? bila lelaki yang nampak kuat nangis? sedih, bukan macam hyun bin nangis dalam cerita secret garden tu, even i like secret garden, tapi sincerely, hyun bin nangis LAWAK. tak sedih langsung. huh.
sooo...lelaki ni actually yang tambah perisa drama ni, yang buat cerita ni double triple sad. :'(
:'(
maybe peminat peminat nikishido ryo dah tawu cerita ni, and dah tahu sume pasal mamat jepun nih, tapi i kan, baru tahu, i don't want to see his other movie, or character, sebab i just suka character die dalam cerita ni. i don't want to see another him.haha. nanti perception i berubah. tanakkk.
so, biar i letak mv drama ni. heeee. sedih.
p/s: lelaki dalam drama. mana wujud.kan. heee. sedih!
Wednesday, 14 November 2012
sentimental.kejap.duh.
Assalamualaikum.
hye guys!
i just want to share with you something that i like, it's up to u nak bace ke taknak, cuz i think this post is not really beneficial for u guys, it's just sharing stories, and if u don't mind wasting your time reading this, feel free then :)
so, here is the story..
before i come to egypt, i did some research, ceh, research..kemain kau.., just google google la someone's blog to know some stories about egypt, how's the life in here, how's the study and all that,
so i pon terjumpa dengan tidak sengaja, one blog belongs to a brother, i tak tawu die year berapa or baru graduate ke ape, but, he study at the same university as i am..tapi i tak tawu die still kat sini or not,
but that's not a problem, kenapa i cakap pasal tu pulak eh?
haha.
oke, as i told u...i just nak share something i like, so here it is,a poem, made by that guy from this blog, his name is Anwar Azhari..
My harsh heart
You made me wonder,
how does it feel to have eyes luring upon you,
while all the intentions are not pure,
even if hopes can be held for the righteous one.
As every inch of you seems that they are carved by God Himself.
None of the composite in this world
should be able to sculp the perfect contour of yourself,
none of the mechanics on this very world
should be able to move your eyelashes as how yours does,
none of the phoners in this very world
should be able to vibe the air to your very laughs that amuses me.
Is it possible to have thy fairness, as an image
to lie first for each morning i wake up to?
Is it possible to have thy touch, to softens
my harsh hearts as to tame it down?
Is it possible to have thy eyes, as a gaze
that i would love to gaze, upon which nothing are true?
Perhaps not everything are possible in this world,
and so the relation of us, are not supposed to
be dreamed of from the beginning.
Perhaps your presence are only to enlightened
a moment of my life, to make me see
that God's creation and promises, are indeed true and real.
For Him, had created the angels that waits
for the truly pure hearted to touch her first, as never the devils
nor their descendants had lured them by touch.
besides that, i think lagi satu ni pon blog die jugak kot, tak silap i laa... but i really want u guys to read this, because it really inspires me..about being a doctor. everytime i have probs with my studies, that really helps me..it makes my spirit bursting like a....err, okay, tu dah hiperbola dah..ehek. dah. malas nak cakap panjang..
just smile :)))))
and daaaaaaa
p/s: lelaki berpuisi. interesting. ahak.
hye guys!
i just want to share with you something that i like, it's up to u nak bace ke taknak, cuz i think this post is not really beneficial for u guys, it's just sharing stories, and if u don't mind wasting your time reading this, feel free then :)
so, here is the story..
before i come to egypt, i did some research, ceh, research..kemain kau.., just google google la someone's blog to know some stories about egypt, how's the life in here, how's the study and all that,
so i pon terjumpa dengan tidak sengaja, one blog belongs to a brother, i tak tawu die year berapa or baru graduate ke ape, but, he study at the same university as i am..tapi i tak tawu die still kat sini or not,
but that's not a problem, kenapa i cakap pasal tu pulak eh?
haha.
oke, as i told u...i just nak share something i like, so here it is,a poem, made by that guy from this blog, his name is Anwar Azhari..
My harsh heart
You made me wonder,
how does it feel to have eyes luring upon you,
while all the intentions are not pure,
even if hopes can be held for the righteous one.
As every inch of you seems that they are carved by God Himself.
None of the composite in this world
should be able to sculp the perfect contour of yourself,
none of the mechanics on this very world
should be able to move your eyelashes as how yours does,
none of the phoners in this very world
should be able to vibe the air to your very laughs that amuses me.
Is it possible to have thy fairness, as an image
to lie first for each morning i wake up to?
Is it possible to have thy touch, to softens
my harsh hearts as to tame it down?
Is it possible to have thy eyes, as a gaze
that i would love to gaze, upon which nothing are true?
Perhaps not everything are possible in this world,
and so the relation of us, are not supposed to
be dreamed of from the beginning.
Perhaps your presence are only to enlightened
a moment of my life, to make me see
that God's creation and promises, are indeed true and real.
For Him, had created the angels that waits
for the truly pure hearted to touch her first, as never the devils
nor their descendants had lured them by touch.
besides that, i think lagi satu ni pon blog die jugak kot, tak silap i laa... but i really want u guys to read this, because it really inspires me..about being a doctor. everytime i have probs with my studies, that really helps me..it makes my spirit bursting like a....err, okay, tu dah hiperbola dah..ehek. dah. malas nak cakap panjang..
just smile :)))))
and daaaaaaa
p/s: lelaki berpuisi. interesting. ahak.
Sunday, 15 July 2012
no more capital P
Assalamualaikum u ollz, haha
i got some stories..okay...not gossiping. but it's just my little experience, some of u mesti dah pernah berdepan dengan lelaki..yang kurang lelaki. yup, ade yang pondan..bapok la apela..but this one... i don't think panggilan tu sesuai.. i pon tak tahu nak gelar dia ape.
it's just for sharing. nama dirahsiakan.. muka dia pon dah tak nampak kat bawah tu..sebab....ade lah sebab dia, just read..
before you read..i just want to say something.. that people... macam yang i dah cakap kat atas tu, agak lembut.. i tak pernah jumpa dia, walaupun sama tempat.. tapi i just tengok dia dari jauh.. dia pon tak kenal i, it's just dia ni agak femes kat tempat ni disebabkan ciri ciri yang dia ade, so i ni tukang tengok dari jauh jela kan? but i don't know why, i sangat sangat tertarik untuk mendekati dia.. ( first, dia ni start femes bila dia post kat fb banyak banyak pasal die kena ejek ngan pasal ciri ciri yang dia ade tu, and start untuk berubah....) and bila u tengok comments kat fb pasal status status dia..RAMAI orang comments sekadar untuk mengejek..but, dia just oke..thanks.. and all that. agak la, benda tu buat i agak geram :)
eg:
one girl : ******, lembut je muka kau, nak muka camtu gak!
he : hha, ade je
WHAT? i geram. serious..
kesian kot kat dia..i just wondering... adakah dia tak sedar yang apa yang dia buat tu buat orang lain ejek dia? adakah dia tak sedar... apa salah dia di mata khalayak ramai? yup, memang dia tak salah untuk menjadi lembut kalau tu memang dah sejar azali lagi, but, what about your lip balm? the mascara? kening yang dicukur itu adakah dicukur dengan sendiri?
i'm sorry, i tak hina dia, i tak ejek dia, malah i rasa i nak duduk tepi dia, kawan dengan dia, tak kesah la apa orang kata..i want to make him change...
but, semenjak dua menjak ni..status kat fb dia berubah....( menunjukkan perubahan : mendekatkan diri kepada Tuhan ) which is a good thing.. right?
i sent to him a link, about self reflection.. and what i did is that i checked everyday on my blog's stats.. whether did someone read my old post about self reflection...but none.
i wonder.. betulkah dia ni dah berubah? or is it just a talk? or just a show?
okay...maybe dia tak sempat..or takut link tu link virus or whatever..i don't care.
about changing..again. ramai orang ejek dia pasal dia nak jadi perempuan. and i sendiri tak tahu kenapa dia buat macam tu.. apa sejarah dia..apa yang buat dia terpengaruh...i tak tahu semua tu..
some of u maybe akan kata 'buat ape kau nak sibuk pasal dia?'
clearly, i akan kata u bodoh. sebab i tak suka manusia yang tak pernah kesah dengan keadaan sekeliling. kalau adik u hisap dadah, mesti u nak halang, kan? itu baru skop kecik, dalam satu institusi keluarga, but kalau dalam sebuah institusi yang besar macam ni, dalam masyarakat kita..i perasan ramai yang pinggir orang yang tak elok..instead, u all boleh dekatkan diri dengan dia..tanpa mencemuh..and slowly, change them.
sebab tu i tak suka ni :
i tak tahu... apa yang i patut buat.. maybe i salah approach dia. i just can say this..dia rugi. sebab tolak i ke tepi. :)
i tak menyesal buat benda ni..walaupun cara i tak bagi kesan apa apa pun kat dia..bagi i, i dah buat semampu yang boleh...i realized yang cara i tak betul..suddenly mintak nak kawan. tetiba suruh dia cakap itu ini..i know... it's just because i don't have any experience. untuk berdepan dengan seorang lembut. and bercakap pasal isu sensitif.. i never done that. and i anggap semalam is one of my GOLDEN MOMENT bila i dapat try. trying is everything okay:)
buat awak, kalau awak baca ni... i just want to say this : i'm sincere. and i'm sorry kalau awak nampak saya sebaliknya..kaca and berlian tu lain tau.haha.
and really..i'm sad. because awak dah tak nak kawan dengan saya lagi..siap block saya lagi..sorry for being annoying:)
baby, i'm not like the rest..
cuz u've been hurt before,
i can see it in your eyes,
u try to smile it away,
some things, u can't disguise,
don't wanna break your heart,
baby, i can ease the ache..the ache
so let me give your heart a break,
your heart a break,
there's just so much you can take,
there's just so much u can take..
i think lagu ni yang paling sesuai untuk dia..but bukan untuk lovers la..it's just for my friend.yang dah tak nak kawan dengan saya.
p/s: i tak tahu sejak bila i jadi sentimental dengan orang macam ni. haha
i got some stories..okay...not gossiping. but it's just my little experience, some of u mesti dah pernah berdepan dengan lelaki..yang kurang lelaki. yup, ade yang pondan..bapok la apela..but this one... i don't think panggilan tu sesuai.. i pon tak tahu nak gelar dia ape.
it's just for sharing. nama dirahsiakan.. muka dia pon dah tak nampak kat bawah tu..sebab....ade lah sebab dia, just read..
before you read..i just want to say something.. that people... macam yang i dah cakap kat atas tu, agak lembut.. i tak pernah jumpa dia, walaupun sama tempat.. tapi i just tengok dia dari jauh.. dia pon tak kenal i, it's just dia ni agak femes kat tempat ni disebabkan ciri ciri yang dia ade, so i ni tukang tengok dari jauh jela kan? but i don't know why, i sangat sangat tertarik untuk mendekati dia.. ( first, dia ni start femes bila dia post kat fb banyak banyak pasal die kena ejek ngan pasal ciri ciri yang dia ade tu, and start untuk berubah....) and bila u tengok comments kat fb pasal status status dia..RAMAI orang comments sekadar untuk mengejek..but, dia just oke..thanks.. and all that. agak la, benda tu buat i agak geram :)
eg:
one girl : ******, lembut je muka kau, nak muka camtu gak!
he : hha, ade je
WHAT? i geram. serious..
kesian kot kat dia..i just wondering... adakah dia tak sedar yang apa yang dia buat tu buat orang lain ejek dia? adakah dia tak sedar... apa salah dia di mata khalayak ramai? yup, memang dia tak salah untuk menjadi lembut kalau tu memang dah sejar azali lagi, but, what about your lip balm? the mascara? kening yang dicukur itu adakah dicukur dengan sendiri?
i'm sorry, i tak hina dia, i tak ejek dia, malah i rasa i nak duduk tepi dia, kawan dengan dia, tak kesah la apa orang kata..i want to make him change...
but, semenjak dua menjak ni..status kat fb dia berubah....( menunjukkan perubahan : mendekatkan diri kepada Tuhan ) which is a good thing.. right?
i sent to him a link, about self reflection.. and what i did is that i checked everyday on my blog's stats.. whether did someone read my old post about self reflection...but none.
i wonder.. betulkah dia ni dah berubah? or is it just a talk? or just a show?
okay...maybe dia tak sempat..or takut link tu link virus or whatever..i don't care.
about changing..again. ramai orang ejek dia pasal dia nak jadi perempuan. and i sendiri tak tahu kenapa dia buat macam tu.. apa sejarah dia..apa yang buat dia terpengaruh...i tak tahu semua tu..
some of u maybe akan kata 'buat ape kau nak sibuk pasal dia?'
clearly, i akan kata u bodoh. sebab i tak suka manusia yang tak pernah kesah dengan keadaan sekeliling. kalau adik u hisap dadah, mesti u nak halang, kan? itu baru skop kecik, dalam satu institusi keluarga, but kalau dalam sebuah institusi yang besar macam ni, dalam masyarakat kita..i perasan ramai yang pinggir orang yang tak elok..instead, u all boleh dekatkan diri dengan dia..tanpa mencemuh..and slowly, change them.
sebab tu i tak suka ni :
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| we HAVE TO change our bad. |
i tak tahu... apa yang i patut buat.. maybe i salah approach dia. i just can say this..dia rugi. sebab tolak i ke tepi. :)
9 hours agoME
hye awk:)
- Owh..
- Noe nk tau??
- *npe
- Allah x meletakkan prantaraan antara manusia n Dye
- Sesape sje, pe sejarah dye , sejaoh mne pgalaman pahit dye, sebanyak mne dose dye
- Kalo dye ingin berhubung ngn allah,,maka, x akan ade pghalanag
- Bukan mnjadi satu kemestian ntok kite tahu mase lmpau n dose seseowg
- Tp, kemestian untok kite m,bimbing dye
- N mengetahui prubahan dye
9 hours agoME- aw xmarah, tp awk terasa
- eh?
- sy xkawan dgn awk sbb nak btanding..
9 hours agoME- sy xnak tahu ape dosa awk pon sblum ni sbb sy lg byk dosa, and sy pon bru nak brubah mcm awk
9 hours agoME- so sorry?
9 hours agoME- sy xtnye sume tu sbb sy sngaja nak pancing awk, sy sdiri xtawu kisah silam awk
- just ape yg buat awk brubah...
- our perspective brubah..
- sy xpaksa awk utk share sume ni.... sbb awk pon xknal sy
9 hours agoME- okay lupakan psl pancing2 sume tu, hmmm... sy just terpikir ape yg buat awk berubah, u've changed twice....
- but seriously, i'm sorry, awk xboleh pndang sy sbgai org yg nak troll awk, ke main2kan awk, mcm bdk2 yg ejek awk tu, i just want to b your friend..hmm...sorry kalau sy salah guna bahasa..
8 hours agoME- so?
- still?
8 hours agoME- no sharing?
HE- Sori..need to remove n block u..u r so annoying..pliz face to face with me if h want to know me..or about the story
- Daaaaa
8 hours agoME
okay.. xpelah kalau mcm tu. i'll keep praying for u. and thanks
i tak menyesal buat benda ni..walaupun cara i tak bagi kesan apa apa pun kat dia..bagi i, i dah buat semampu yang boleh...i realized yang cara i tak betul..suddenly mintak nak kawan. tetiba suruh dia cakap itu ini..i know... it's just because i don't have any experience. untuk berdepan dengan seorang lembut. and bercakap pasal isu sensitif.. i never done that. and i anggap semalam is one of my GOLDEN MOMENT bila i dapat try. trying is everything okay:)
buat awak, kalau awak baca ni... i just want to say this : i'm sincere. and i'm sorry kalau awak nampak saya sebaliknya..kaca and berlian tu lain tau.haha.
and really..i'm sad. because awak dah tak nak kawan dengan saya lagi..siap block saya lagi..sorry for being annoying:)
baby, i'm not like the rest..
cuz u've been hurt before,
i can see it in your eyes,
u try to smile it away,
some things, u can't disguise,
don't wanna break your heart,
baby, i can ease the ache..the ache
so let me give your heart a break,
your heart a break,
there's just so much you can take,
there's just so much u can take..
i think lagu ni yang paling sesuai untuk dia..but bukan untuk lovers la..it's just for my friend.yang dah tak nak kawan dengan saya.
p/s: i tak tahu sejak bila i jadi sentimental dengan orang macam ni. haha
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