Among all of the poems I studied in the school before, I like this the most. tenang. It touches my heart.
I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made:
Nine bean-rows will I have there, a hive for the honey-bee;
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.
And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;
There midnight's all a glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet's wings.
I will arise and go now,
for always night and day I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements grey,
I hear it in the deep heart's core.
Showing posts with label me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label me. Show all posts
Monday, 9 September 2013
Saturday, 10 August 2013
it is not over. darling.
'people cry not because love ends, but because it still continues even it is over'
you know the feeling.... the pain, when you build fence as a barrier between you and him, while your heart is still into him.
and. and. you must pretend like you were over him. talk to him. laugh to his jokes. while wondering, is he over me already?
rasa macam hati ni diperah sampai kering. tak tahu dah nak rasa apa.
is it my fault though?
Sunday, 4 August 2013
silap
langkah demi langkah,
aku harap tiada yang tersasul,
aku yakin Dia disisi,
tapi, kenapa sekarang aku rasa
tapi, kenapa sekarang aku rasa
aku tersilap mencoret warna
atas kanvas hidup aku,
aku tak layak,
walaupun untuk bermimpi.
silap itu lazim ada dalam hidup, kan?
kalau tak bukanlah hidup namanya.
sekarang, aku perlu pulang,
atau teruskan?
tapi, kabarkan dulu,
betulkah aku tersilap?
Thursday, 25 July 2013
Wednesday, 17 July 2013
a complication
tottttttttttttttttttttttt
as if there is a laser in front of me, that stopping me from crossing the line.
everytime i try, i became vibrated. and stopped. by the thin piece of light.
what am i gonna do now?
Tuesday, 16 July 2013
hug please
pernah tak rasa macam nak nangis dan gelak for the same time?
oops. bukan gelak dan nangis ye, nangis dan gelak.
all of this make me wonder, am i wrong in making the choice?
however..... pain is not forever right?
holding on to that.
but, before that, can i get a hug?
oops. bukan gelak dan nangis ye, nangis dan gelak.
all of this make me wonder, am i wrong in making the choice?
however..... pain is not forever right?
holding on to that.
but, before that, can i get a hug?
Sunday, 14 July 2013
todays quote
kadang kadang kan...
nak lah jugak share a quote -.-
yeknow when yewere scrolling through facebook, and suddenly yefind something that match yesituation that time. huh.
yeah.thats it. i don't like when people had to do something unwillingly for me.
lebih baik jangan buat apa apa dari buat dengan terpaksa. i don't need that.
c'mon, grow up.
nak lah jugak share a quote -.-
yeknow when yewere scrolling through facebook, and suddenly yefind something that match yesituation that time. huh.
yeah.thats it. i don't like when people had to do something unwillingly for me.
lebih baik jangan buat apa apa dari buat dengan terpaksa. i don't need that.
c'mon, grow up.
Monday, 17 June 2013
kuat
I wonder.. sampai bilalah i nak jadi beban orang lain?
maybe, memang tanggungjawab diorang. but until when? they have suffered enough for all of us.
Dear God....please?
please make me stronger. please make them stronger.
maybe, memang tanggungjawab diorang. but until when? they have suffered enough for all of us.
Dear God....please?
please make me stronger. please make them stronger.
Wednesday, 12 June 2013
gelap
maybe people sees me, as a wow.
she's a genius.
she's cute.
she's innocent.
but. can you feel this? can you feel what i am feeling right now? all of that words and you are looking at the black side of you!
there's so much of it. black as charcoals.
you know your heart. of course.
and i know mine. too.
and i feel bad about it.
betapa kalau orang nampak apa yang ada dalam hati ni, rasanya i lah manusia paling jahat di muka bumi ni. paling hina..
she's a genius.
she's cute.
she's innocent.
but. can you feel this? can you feel what i am feeling right now? all of that words and you are looking at the black side of you!
there's so much of it. black as charcoals.
you know your heart. of course.
and i know mine. too.
and i feel bad about it.
betapa kalau orang nampak apa yang ada dalam hati ni, rasanya i lah manusia paling jahat di muka bumi ni. paling hina..
Friday, 17 May 2013
fool
Lama lah jugak ye laptop ni i tenung. menunggu idea yang tak kunjung tiba.
tapi kalau lari je dari laptop memang mencurah curah idea..
waiting for the signal.
emm..
that's it.
i really think that i should split this out.
that i'm really a fool of myself.
yup.yup
sometimes. i feel that i ni seriously useless je kalau buat hidup pon. that's also the time when i amaze to see those people yang pada zahirnya useless kita tengok, still lagi feeling to feel alive. not like me.
not like me.
i am bad.
i am bad to feel like this.
it feels as if everything i did was no right. all are wrong. wrong....
mungkinkah rahmatMu jauh yaAllah?
bantulah aku T.T
tapi kalau lari je dari laptop memang mencurah curah idea..
waiting for the signal.
emm..
that's it.
i really think that i should split this out.
that i'm really a fool of myself.
yup.yup
sometimes. i feel that i ni seriously useless je kalau buat hidup pon. that's also the time when i amaze to see those people yang pada zahirnya useless kita tengok, still lagi feeling to feel alive. not like me.
not like me.
i am bad.
i am bad to feel like this.
it feels as if everything i did was no right. all are wrong. wrong....
mungkinkah rahmatMu jauh yaAllah?
bantulah aku T.T
Monday, 18 February 2013
mimpi
things i wanted to achieve in my life. bukan impian. bukan cita cita. tapi just something yang.. hmm..one day, i want this.
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| a house for my mama. not exactly like this, but mama suka rumah yang ade space untuk bercucuk tanam, bukan bunga, tapi sayur and fruits untuk dimakan. muahaha, so, one fine day, i nak belikan mama rumah yang dia nak :') |
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| i've always wanted a small house near village, yang ada pagar kayu, tenang jeee... and that house is just for me, to spend my time alone doing my hobby..drawing.. |
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| beach honeymoon. lambat lagi. |
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| my house mesti ada tandas macam ni, it's my dream. wide space, ade portions..ehek, too sexy for a married couple. aww. |
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| holland. my dream holiday vacation!!!!!!! |
soalan nak muntah
Assalamualaikum,
rindu nak tulis blog.. jap, nak perasaan popular kejap, sorry ye pembaca pembaca peminat peminat i sekalian, i'm sorry cause dah lame tak update belog.. sebab i baru jeeeeeeee habis exam! fuh, and right now, i spending my ugh, great..holiday .ugh. haha, alhamdulillah, akhirnya, boleh jugak spend time tanpa perlu fikir, sekarang kena tidur ke kena tu ke kena ini ke, tanpa perlu time management, diriku boleh enjoy waaaaaaaaa watching dramas again!
u'olls..
actually la kan..malas nak tulis panjang panjang lagi,
i'm just gonna ask a simple question,
jawapan die, whether yes or no! eh bukan, it is whether 'aah' atau.. 'eh..tak kot?'
sakit tak dapat balas cinta seseorang tu lagi perit kan daripada sakit menahan cinta kita kat seseorang tu?
p/s: i tawu mesti korang menyampah baca soalan tu kan, sebab i pon menyampah gak! hahaha :p
p/sII : lagi satu soalan, tapi tak payah jawab. apa perasaan u olls when someone u don't even know whether u like them or not, but what u know is that you have no future with him and the conditions right now do not permit you to say yes when he proposed you? wah, panjang bebolit mak aiii soalan! :p
rindu nak tulis blog.. jap, nak perasaan popular kejap, sorry ye pembaca pembaca peminat peminat i sekalian, i'm sorry cause dah lame tak update belog.. sebab i baru jeeeeeeee habis exam! fuh, and right now, i spending my ugh, great..holiday .ugh. haha, alhamdulillah, akhirnya, boleh jugak spend time tanpa perlu fikir, sekarang kena tidur ke kena tu ke kena ini ke, tanpa perlu time management, diriku boleh enjoy waaaaaaaaa watching dramas again!
u'olls..
actually la kan..malas nak tulis panjang panjang lagi,
i'm just gonna ask a simple question,
jawapan die, whether yes or no! eh bukan, it is whether 'aah' atau.. 'eh..tak kot?'
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sakit tak dapat balas cinta seseorang tu lagi perit kan daripada sakit menahan cinta kita kat seseorang tu?
p/s: i tawu mesti korang menyampah baca soalan tu kan, sebab i pon menyampah gak! hahaha :p
p/sII : lagi satu soalan, tapi tak payah jawab. apa perasaan u olls when someone u don't even know whether u like them or not, but what u know is that you have no future with him and the conditions right now do not permit you to say yes when he proposed you? wah, panjang bebolit mak aiii soalan! :p
Sunday, 30 December 2012
secret to success - eric thomas
first of all, i want to say that when i saw this video, i feel that i was spoilt, and that i didn't want to be a doctor so badly as i was supposed to be. kind of looser. but thanks to my friend yang post this kat facebook, because it made me realize my faultsss, and insyaAllah, i'll try to change my attitude, my bad attitude. insyaAllah.
Tuesday, 13 November 2012
cover what needs to be covered
Salam
(tajuk tu actually ayat maria elena :p )
I dah laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaameeeeee lame lame sangat tak post something kat blog i, but guys, i will make sure that this post will be very beneficial for you, to read,
yeah.
walaupun takdelah ber benefit sangat...........................
tapi i hope that all of you will get the meaning of what will i write kat bawah ni..
oke? ehek.
sebenarnye..emm..... i just nak share one thing la, yang i dapat sejak i datang ke egypt ni.. lebih tepat lagi, alexandria.. it's about prayer.
solat. i dapat tengok something yang i jarang tengok kat malaysia, and sebab itulah, i rasa i kena cerita. firstly.. apa yang i nampak kat sini, maybe ramai yang dah tahu, kita dapat tengok orang solat di mana mana. bukan specific di surau or masjid je, tapi di mana mana. kadang kadang i nampak pakcik yang kena jaga kedai runcit dia just bentang sejadah kat tepi kedai dia and..solat. just like that. solat kat tepi jalan.
it shows that, whatever u're doing, wherever u're sitting, whenever, and all eber lah, u tetap kena ...? solaaaat. pehe dok?
and one more thing yang i nampak kat sini is they, i mean girls, do not wear any prayer dress waktu solat, yeah, cuz they don't have that, ei? and agak la...i pon malas jugak actually nak bawak telekung hari2 pergi kuliah, malas jugak doooooohhh..
mengaku atau tak, it trains me sebenarnya. untuk menutup aurat dengan lebih sempurna. seriously.
kalau kat malaysia, yep, maybe kita akan jumpe jugak dua tiga orang yang solat tanpa telekung, but mostly, orang tudung labuh kan? betul... mostly. sebab ape?
sebab diorang tawu yang diorang tutup aurat dengan sempurna.
sebab kita tawu kita tak tutup aurat dengan sempurna. kan? :)
so... i bukan nak seru semua orang, jom pakat pakai tudung labuh, but... jom kita tutup aurat kita dengan sempurna. tak semestinya orang pakai tudung bulat labuh tu je boleh tutup aurat dia dengan sempurna. kita pon boleh yaww.
kita pakai selendang pon labuh.
kita pakai tudung bawal pon tutup dada.
kita pakai jeans pon dengan baju labuh yaww.
baju labuh tu janganla just tutup punggung..
huh, guys, actually u olls semua pun tawu ciri ciri menutup aurat macam mana.
so why not kita same same practice tutup aurat kita just as if kita nak solat .just simple man.
i tawu susah untuk kita tukar gaya kita berpakaian, but slowly, ikhlaskan hati kita, pakai socks, pakai hand socks dengan baju kurung, do those little things yang u all rase remeh temeh, because it is actually not a remeh temeh thing in front of our God's eye...
kan? i hope that i takde terkasar bahasa dalam mengajak u olls untuk sama sama menutup aurat, and sorry for the long silence. pray for me. and assalamuaaikum :p
(tajuk tu actually ayat maria elena :p )
I dah laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaameeeeee lame lame sangat tak post something kat blog i, but guys, i will make sure that this post will be very beneficial for you, to read,
yeah.
walaupun takdelah ber benefit sangat...........................
tapi i hope that all of you will get the meaning of what will i write kat bawah ni..
oke? ehek.
sebenarnye..emm..... i just nak share one thing la, yang i dapat sejak i datang ke egypt ni.. lebih tepat lagi, alexandria.. it's about prayer.
solat. i dapat tengok something yang i jarang tengok kat malaysia, and sebab itulah, i rasa i kena cerita. firstly.. apa yang i nampak kat sini, maybe ramai yang dah tahu, kita dapat tengok orang solat di mana mana. bukan specific di surau or masjid je, tapi di mana mana. kadang kadang i nampak pakcik yang kena jaga kedai runcit dia just bentang sejadah kat tepi kedai dia and..solat. just like that. solat kat tepi jalan.
it shows that, whatever u're doing, wherever u're sitting, whenever, and all eber lah, u tetap kena ...? solaaaat. pehe dok?
and one more thing yang i nampak kat sini is they, i mean girls, do not wear any prayer dress waktu solat, yeah, cuz they don't have that, ei? and agak la...i pon malas jugak actually nak bawak telekung hari2 pergi kuliah, malas jugak doooooohhh..
mengaku atau tak, it trains me sebenarnya. untuk menutup aurat dengan lebih sempurna. seriously.
kalau kat malaysia, yep, maybe kita akan jumpe jugak dua tiga orang yang solat tanpa telekung, but mostly, orang tudung labuh kan? betul... mostly. sebab ape?
sebab diorang tawu yang diorang tutup aurat dengan sempurna.
sebab kita tawu kita tak tutup aurat dengan sempurna. kan? :)
so... i bukan nak seru semua orang, jom pakat pakai tudung labuh, but... jom kita tutup aurat kita dengan sempurna. tak semestinya orang pakai tudung bulat labuh tu je boleh tutup aurat dia dengan sempurna. kita pon boleh yaww.
kita pakai selendang pon labuh.
kita pakai tudung bawal pon tutup dada.
kita pakai jeans pon dengan baju labuh yaww.
baju labuh tu janganla just tutup punggung..
huh, guys, actually u olls semua pun tawu ciri ciri menutup aurat macam mana.
so why not kita same same practice tutup aurat kita just as if kita nak solat .just simple man.
i tawu susah untuk kita tukar gaya kita berpakaian, but slowly, ikhlaskan hati kita, pakai socks, pakai hand socks dengan baju kurung, do those little things yang u all rase remeh temeh, because it is actually not a remeh temeh thing in front of our God's eye...
kan? i hope that i takde terkasar bahasa dalam mengajak u olls untuk sama sama menutup aurat, and sorry for the long silence. pray for me. and assalamuaaikum :p
Thursday, 25 October 2012
didie bt eddie last episode
kenapa last?
kenapa last episode?
i just want to stop my entry about cats..about didie.
when i received a call from my mother, that didie's gone....
i dont know what to say, when she died not in front of my eyes, when i'm thousand miles away from her..
maybe it was her time.. i know that.
just to inform that didie and her five little cute babies were gone, along with Tiger, my other cat.. because of some viruses i don't know what..
kenapa last episode?
i just want to stop my entry about cats..about didie.
when i received a call from my mother, that didie's gone....
i dont know what to say, when she died not in front of my eyes, when i'm thousand miles away from her..
maybe it was her time.. i know that.
just to inform that didie and her five little cute babies were gone, along with Tiger, my other cat.. because of some viruses i don't know what..
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Saturday, 15 September 2012
starting a new life 1
Assalamualaikum.
and alhamdulillah.
i sangat sangat bersyukur sebab i selamat sampai di bumi anbia'. di bumi mesir ni pada 10 sept lepas.
and i'm so sooo sorry to u olls sebab i dah mendiamkan diri lama sangat dalam dunia blog ni.. it's because i'm so busy dengan preparation for my flight to egypt selama ni.
alhamdulillah i dapat sambung belajar di university of alexandria kat sini dalam bulan depan kot. and now i'm in cairo..lepak sini dulu sebelum akak akak senior mari sini and fetch us. insyaAllah next week. doakan semuanya berjalan lancar kay guys :D
and one more...i miss malaysia a lot now.haha. but no home sick okay.hhaha.
i miss uitm(palam) and i miss j3.
and i miss my cat the most!
lupa nak bagitahu, didie dah beranak lima. and satu pon anak dia takda pon yang sama dengan dia. semua ikot father dia..haha, father~~~
semua ikot muka kekasih gelap didie. black colour..
okay, forget about that now sebab nanti i will tell the story in a special post - didie bt eddie
now, pictures tell everything :)
i guess that's all for now. nanti insyaAllah i akan update more. pasal jalan jalan shopping pulak. tadi lawatan je tu. hehe. don't wait guys. sebab i sebenarnya pon tak tahu bila nak update. u know~
and alhamdulillah.
i sangat sangat bersyukur sebab i selamat sampai di bumi anbia'. di bumi mesir ni pada 10 sept lepas.
and i'm so sooo sorry to u olls sebab i dah mendiamkan diri lama sangat dalam dunia blog ni.. it's because i'm so busy dengan preparation for my flight to egypt selama ni.
alhamdulillah i dapat sambung belajar di university of alexandria kat sini dalam bulan depan kot. and now i'm in cairo..lepak sini dulu sebelum akak akak senior mari sini and fetch us. insyaAllah next week. doakan semuanya berjalan lancar kay guys :D
and one more...i miss malaysia a lot now.haha. but no home sick okay.hhaha.
i miss uitm(palam) and i miss j3.
and i miss my cat the most!
lupa nak bagitahu, didie dah beranak lima. and satu pon anak dia takda pon yang sama dengan dia. semua ikot father dia..haha, father~~~
semua ikot muka kekasih gelap didie. black colour..
okay, forget about that now sebab nanti i will tell the story in a special post - didie bt eddie
now, pictures tell everything :)
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| luggage:) |
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| at the airport :) |
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| ni rupa bentuk bangunan kat cairo. semuanya cokelat.haha. |
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| ni tak silap kubu ape ntah.haha.sory lupa. |
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| ni masjid 4 mazhab..kot.haha |
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| cantik kan ukiran die ? |
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| ni kubah kat tgh2 antara bilik keempat empat mazhab di setiap sudut of masjid 4 mazhab iaitu mazhab maliki, hanafi, hambali, and syafie..haa, pandai i kan~ |
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| pengunjung dari indonesia sedang solat :) |
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| ni pula pengunjung dari mlaysia. cantik cantik semua.haha. termasuk diriku.hahaha. sory terperasan sikit ye adiq adiq qaqaq qaqaq! |
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| ni makam king farouq.. i tak tahu pon sape king farouq ni sape sebenarnye, hurmm.. agak teruk la pengetahuan am i sebab mase tu kebetulan ade 2 orang western tourists sama sama ngan kitorang. i dengar la dorang cerita cerita pasal king farouq ni..rasa macam ya Allah.. kita ni macam tak ambil tahu pasal mende mende ni which is not good ye kawan kawan :/ btw, makam ni dalam masjid al-hussain yaitu bersebelahan dengan masjid 4 mazhab tadi. and dua dua masjid tu mempunyai ukiran dan reka bentuk yang cantik. dan bersejarah. amboi! |
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| ni makam imam syafie... |
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| rupa dalam masjid imam as-syafie |
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| ni pulak tiang tempat imam syafie selalu sandar.. |
i belum ade tempat tinggal tetap lagi.just wait. thanks guys!!
Sunday, 15 July 2012
no more capital P
Assalamualaikum u ollz, haha
i got some stories..okay...not gossiping. but it's just my little experience, some of u mesti dah pernah berdepan dengan lelaki..yang kurang lelaki. yup, ade yang pondan..bapok la apela..but this one... i don't think panggilan tu sesuai.. i pon tak tahu nak gelar dia ape.
it's just for sharing. nama dirahsiakan.. muka dia pon dah tak nampak kat bawah tu..sebab....ade lah sebab dia, just read..
before you read..i just want to say something.. that people... macam yang i dah cakap kat atas tu, agak lembut.. i tak pernah jumpa dia, walaupun sama tempat.. tapi i just tengok dia dari jauh.. dia pon tak kenal i, it's just dia ni agak femes kat tempat ni disebabkan ciri ciri yang dia ade, so i ni tukang tengok dari jauh jela kan? but i don't know why, i sangat sangat tertarik untuk mendekati dia.. ( first, dia ni start femes bila dia post kat fb banyak banyak pasal die kena ejek ngan pasal ciri ciri yang dia ade tu, and start untuk berubah....) and bila u tengok comments kat fb pasal status status dia..RAMAI orang comments sekadar untuk mengejek..but, dia just oke..thanks.. and all that. agak la, benda tu buat i agak geram :)
eg:
one girl : ******, lembut je muka kau, nak muka camtu gak!
he : hha, ade je
WHAT? i geram. serious..
kesian kot kat dia..i just wondering... adakah dia tak sedar yang apa yang dia buat tu buat orang lain ejek dia? adakah dia tak sedar... apa salah dia di mata khalayak ramai? yup, memang dia tak salah untuk menjadi lembut kalau tu memang dah sejar azali lagi, but, what about your lip balm? the mascara? kening yang dicukur itu adakah dicukur dengan sendiri?
i'm sorry, i tak hina dia, i tak ejek dia, malah i rasa i nak duduk tepi dia, kawan dengan dia, tak kesah la apa orang kata..i want to make him change...
but, semenjak dua menjak ni..status kat fb dia berubah....( menunjukkan perubahan : mendekatkan diri kepada Tuhan ) which is a good thing.. right?
i sent to him a link, about self reflection.. and what i did is that i checked everyday on my blog's stats.. whether did someone read my old post about self reflection...but none.
i wonder.. betulkah dia ni dah berubah? or is it just a talk? or just a show?
okay...maybe dia tak sempat..or takut link tu link virus or whatever..i don't care.
about changing..again. ramai orang ejek dia pasal dia nak jadi perempuan. and i sendiri tak tahu kenapa dia buat macam tu.. apa sejarah dia..apa yang buat dia terpengaruh...i tak tahu semua tu..
some of u maybe akan kata 'buat ape kau nak sibuk pasal dia?'
clearly, i akan kata u bodoh. sebab i tak suka manusia yang tak pernah kesah dengan keadaan sekeliling. kalau adik u hisap dadah, mesti u nak halang, kan? itu baru skop kecik, dalam satu institusi keluarga, but kalau dalam sebuah institusi yang besar macam ni, dalam masyarakat kita..i perasan ramai yang pinggir orang yang tak elok..instead, u all boleh dekatkan diri dengan dia..tanpa mencemuh..and slowly, change them.
sebab tu i tak suka ni :
i tak tahu... apa yang i patut buat.. maybe i salah approach dia. i just can say this..dia rugi. sebab tolak i ke tepi. :)
i tak menyesal buat benda ni..walaupun cara i tak bagi kesan apa apa pun kat dia..bagi i, i dah buat semampu yang boleh...i realized yang cara i tak betul..suddenly mintak nak kawan. tetiba suruh dia cakap itu ini..i know... it's just because i don't have any experience. untuk berdepan dengan seorang lembut. and bercakap pasal isu sensitif.. i never done that. and i anggap semalam is one of my GOLDEN MOMENT bila i dapat try. trying is everything okay:)
buat awak, kalau awak baca ni... i just want to say this : i'm sincere. and i'm sorry kalau awak nampak saya sebaliknya..kaca and berlian tu lain tau.haha.
and really..i'm sad. because awak dah tak nak kawan dengan saya lagi..siap block saya lagi..sorry for being annoying:)
baby, i'm not like the rest..
cuz u've been hurt before,
i can see it in your eyes,
u try to smile it away,
some things, u can't disguise,
don't wanna break your heart,
baby, i can ease the ache..the ache
so let me give your heart a break,
your heart a break,
there's just so much you can take,
there's just so much u can take..
i think lagu ni yang paling sesuai untuk dia..but bukan untuk lovers la..it's just for my friend.yang dah tak nak kawan dengan saya.
p/s: i tak tahu sejak bila i jadi sentimental dengan orang macam ni. haha
i got some stories..okay...not gossiping. but it's just my little experience, some of u mesti dah pernah berdepan dengan lelaki..yang kurang lelaki. yup, ade yang pondan..bapok la apela..but this one... i don't think panggilan tu sesuai.. i pon tak tahu nak gelar dia ape.
it's just for sharing. nama dirahsiakan.. muka dia pon dah tak nampak kat bawah tu..sebab....ade lah sebab dia, just read..
before you read..i just want to say something.. that people... macam yang i dah cakap kat atas tu, agak lembut.. i tak pernah jumpa dia, walaupun sama tempat.. tapi i just tengok dia dari jauh.. dia pon tak kenal i, it's just dia ni agak femes kat tempat ni disebabkan ciri ciri yang dia ade, so i ni tukang tengok dari jauh jela kan? but i don't know why, i sangat sangat tertarik untuk mendekati dia.. ( first, dia ni start femes bila dia post kat fb banyak banyak pasal die kena ejek ngan pasal ciri ciri yang dia ade tu, and start untuk berubah....) and bila u tengok comments kat fb pasal status status dia..RAMAI orang comments sekadar untuk mengejek..but, dia just oke..thanks.. and all that. agak la, benda tu buat i agak geram :)
eg:
one girl : ******, lembut je muka kau, nak muka camtu gak!
he : hha, ade je
WHAT? i geram. serious..
kesian kot kat dia..i just wondering... adakah dia tak sedar yang apa yang dia buat tu buat orang lain ejek dia? adakah dia tak sedar... apa salah dia di mata khalayak ramai? yup, memang dia tak salah untuk menjadi lembut kalau tu memang dah sejar azali lagi, but, what about your lip balm? the mascara? kening yang dicukur itu adakah dicukur dengan sendiri?
i'm sorry, i tak hina dia, i tak ejek dia, malah i rasa i nak duduk tepi dia, kawan dengan dia, tak kesah la apa orang kata..i want to make him change...
but, semenjak dua menjak ni..status kat fb dia berubah....( menunjukkan perubahan : mendekatkan diri kepada Tuhan ) which is a good thing.. right?
i sent to him a link, about self reflection.. and what i did is that i checked everyday on my blog's stats.. whether did someone read my old post about self reflection...but none.
i wonder.. betulkah dia ni dah berubah? or is it just a talk? or just a show?
okay...maybe dia tak sempat..or takut link tu link virus or whatever..i don't care.
about changing..again. ramai orang ejek dia pasal dia nak jadi perempuan. and i sendiri tak tahu kenapa dia buat macam tu.. apa sejarah dia..apa yang buat dia terpengaruh...i tak tahu semua tu..
some of u maybe akan kata 'buat ape kau nak sibuk pasal dia?'
clearly, i akan kata u bodoh. sebab i tak suka manusia yang tak pernah kesah dengan keadaan sekeliling. kalau adik u hisap dadah, mesti u nak halang, kan? itu baru skop kecik, dalam satu institusi keluarga, but kalau dalam sebuah institusi yang besar macam ni, dalam masyarakat kita..i perasan ramai yang pinggir orang yang tak elok..instead, u all boleh dekatkan diri dengan dia..tanpa mencemuh..and slowly, change them.
sebab tu i tak suka ni :
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| we HAVE TO change our bad. |
i tak tahu... apa yang i patut buat.. maybe i salah approach dia. i just can say this..dia rugi. sebab tolak i ke tepi. :)
9 hours agoME
hye awk:)
- Owh..
- Noe nk tau??
- *npe
- Allah x meletakkan prantaraan antara manusia n Dye
- Sesape sje, pe sejarah dye , sejaoh mne pgalaman pahit dye, sebanyak mne dose dye
- Kalo dye ingin berhubung ngn allah,,maka, x akan ade pghalanag
- Bukan mnjadi satu kemestian ntok kite tahu mase lmpau n dose seseowg
- Tp, kemestian untok kite m,bimbing dye
- N mengetahui prubahan dye
9 hours agoME- aw xmarah, tp awk terasa
- eh?
- sy xkawan dgn awk sbb nak btanding..
9 hours agoME- sy xnak tahu ape dosa awk pon sblum ni sbb sy lg byk dosa, and sy pon bru nak brubah mcm awk
9 hours agoME- so sorry?
9 hours agoME- sy xtnye sume tu sbb sy sngaja nak pancing awk, sy sdiri xtawu kisah silam awk
- just ape yg buat awk brubah...
- our perspective brubah..
- sy xpaksa awk utk share sume ni.... sbb awk pon xknal sy
9 hours agoME- okay lupakan psl pancing2 sume tu, hmmm... sy just terpikir ape yg buat awk berubah, u've changed twice....
- but seriously, i'm sorry, awk xboleh pndang sy sbgai org yg nak troll awk, ke main2kan awk, mcm bdk2 yg ejek awk tu, i just want to b your friend..hmm...sorry kalau sy salah guna bahasa..
8 hours agoME- so?
- still?
8 hours agoME- no sharing?
HE- Sori..need to remove n block u..u r so annoying..pliz face to face with me if h want to know me..or about the story
- Daaaaa
8 hours agoME
okay.. xpelah kalau mcm tu. i'll keep praying for u. and thanks
i tak menyesal buat benda ni..walaupun cara i tak bagi kesan apa apa pun kat dia..bagi i, i dah buat semampu yang boleh...i realized yang cara i tak betul..suddenly mintak nak kawan. tetiba suruh dia cakap itu ini..i know... it's just because i don't have any experience. untuk berdepan dengan seorang lembut. and bercakap pasal isu sensitif.. i never done that. and i anggap semalam is one of my GOLDEN MOMENT bila i dapat try. trying is everything okay:)
buat awak, kalau awak baca ni... i just want to say this : i'm sincere. and i'm sorry kalau awak nampak saya sebaliknya..kaca and berlian tu lain tau.haha.
and really..i'm sad. because awak dah tak nak kawan dengan saya lagi..siap block saya lagi..sorry for being annoying:)
baby, i'm not like the rest..
cuz u've been hurt before,
i can see it in your eyes,
u try to smile it away,
some things, u can't disguise,
don't wanna break your heart,
baby, i can ease the ache..the ache
so let me give your heart a break,
your heart a break,
there's just so much you can take,
there's just so much u can take..
i think lagu ni yang paling sesuai untuk dia..but bukan untuk lovers la..it's just for my friend.yang dah tak nak kawan dengan saya.
p/s: i tak tahu sejak bila i jadi sentimental dengan orang macam ni. haha
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