Assalamualaikum, and hye there..
I don't know why, but sometimes...I think I'm gonna share something somewhat personal in here..heh, some people said that they won't ever let the world know their feeling, but guys, do you even know who I am? haha.. okay. tak lawak.
so, here I am, on the way, to express my..err... feeling, although, I don't really like reading people punya luahan-hati-yang-kalau-kau-baca-mulut-kau-akan-ternganga-sebab-nak-muntah . okay, panjang gila.
but, forgive me guys because... at least, I don't think, my way of feeling expression will make people nauseated..haha.
so.. I don't expect myself to come up to this extend...huh.
I know that I'm not supposed to think about him.. and seriously, why not another guy?
because, he's too good to be true.
and, he must be laughing if he know about this. that i'm liking him..like...seriously.
sometimes it makes me think that, kalau i'm that serious, why not compete? yeah..why don't you make yourself better than him..correct yourself..
why not seriously, as serious as you like him, change yourself to be a better woman? to be a girl that you think suits him, maybe?
I don't want to make any expectations- that when I do that, or that, he will be true , that he will come out of your dream, walking towards your "reality"
because, i dah cakap - he's too good to be true.
and changing....
i tak rasa it's worth it, it's for Him, not for him..
it's for my only Lord, that loves me, that cares for me every seconds of my life.....
and i pray - Ya Allah, please guide me, show me your light. jika tidak, saya termasuk orang orang yang rugi.
I wish I can change myself.. for Him - and to purify my niat. insyaAllah.
p/s: i still remember the moment i promised myself to let go of these childish thingy.to focus on my studies, yet, it comes again. lemahnya saya.
